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reviewing the past and other random thoughts [11 Feb 2008|02:42am]
sometimes i wonder how different things could have been. life goes on and i feel left behind. random. i can't believe the overwhelming loneliness i feel every now and again. by all rights i SHOULDN'T ever feel this way. i find myself wanting to go back in time maybe this is regret? maybe this is fear? of now, of what was, of the future? i've been reading for the last hour or so reflecting on things how things could have been different. i'm not really even sure now what my conclusion is although i think whats bothering me are things i never said. and things i always was.

i've changed alot. too much. i think i may have lost myself somewhere along the way. i was brave, the bad girl always up for a good time. who am i now? i'm meek i never speak my mind i'm afraid i cower who the fuck is this person? its not the me i remember. its not the me i want to be. maybe i grew up who the fuck knows.

why am i even writing in lj? a cry for attention, nah not at all i know what it is even if my fingers and the keyboard are lying to me. it was because i had to clear the air. get it off my chest. the things i found reminded me and i never said it before even if it's now not directly to you. you'll know it's you. others may even think its them but its not YOU will know it's you. i'm sure you won't mention it though.

i'm sorry i hurt you. i'm sorry i never said it. i'm sorry.

i always loved you.
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hello [03 Aug 2007|02:43am]
i'm drunk and lonely

someone hold me.
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[02 Nov 2005|04:55am]
It's alive.
www.jadedhearts.net
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FUCK YOU OHIO. [12 Dec 2004|12:57am]
With all the shit talking going on between Phil & Rex and Dimebag & VinnePaul I wonder what exactly Phil will have to say http://www.roadrunnerrecords.com/blabbermouth.net/news.aspx?mode=Article&newsitemID=30262 that doesn't really say much but eh. Just Dec. 1 Phil said someone should beat the shit out of Dimebag. My god it's so fucking lame, he was murdered because some deranged fan thought Pantera stole his songs.

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Friends of Gale's describe him as a loner. They say over the past few years his personality changed, and they add that they distanced themselves from him. They say he loved music, and was almost obsessed with the band PANTERA. Two members of PANTERA formed DAMAGEPLAN.

Former friend Jeremy Brey says, "We started noticing things. We were having band practice and he came over to sing a couple songs. There were a few he wrote that had PANTERA lyrics and we said you can't do this, these aren't your songs." Gale was a Marine, but friends say he did not show extra interest in guns or violence.

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WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK.

I'm glad I did get to see them live a couple of times.
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[10 Oct 2004|11:04pm]
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JADE.
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[20 Sep 2004|05:05am]
http://jadedhearts.info

god I can't stay away.
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[16 Sep 2004|12:30am]
Hey Gregg I'm watching CNN and my knowledge of the south sucks so live through the hurricane please.

*looks at maps.yahoo*

Oh it's 300 miles away... Live through the tornados!
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[18 Aug 2004|05:59pm]
I hardly ever get to use my kick ass stereo because it's far too loud. On volume #3 of 30 it vibrates the walls. I do not live in a cardboard box. I had it up to 16 today, the loudest ever. To Crossbreed haha...

I deep cleaned my kitchen, living room, bedroom, bathroom and hallway today it was the only thing preventing me from beating the life out of my mother. That and her locked door. I don't think I've ever been so angry in all my life. If Matt had answered his phone I probably be living with him right now. I've cooled off somewhat but I still have a high murderous intent and I'm thinking about fighting that off with a few margaritas and a 6 pack when my father gets home. The last time I was this angry I put my fist through a wall several times. It seems as though I've matured somewhat since then and have replaced violence with house work and music. What a pussy I've become.
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Evil coffee I smite thee [04 May 2004|11:59pm]
I'M SO SICK OF MY FUCKING JOB JESUS CHRIST I NEED SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

Okay I feel somewhat better.

I'm so sick of idiots. You'd think being in washington state, the home of the latte in america, people would know what the fuck they want. Not to mention they'd know it was going to expensive at starbucks. It's like going to a 5 star resturant and being shocked by a 35 dollar steak. WTF is wrong with these idiots?! Bah, I hate people, I hate customer service and I was spoiled by actually working at a 5 star resturant. Why the fuck do I work in retail?

I'm seriously concidering applying for a serving position again. I know it's a step down in resume land but seriously people treat you so much better and not to mention the money. OH sweet lord the money. I never realized how great it was to take home 50-100 bucks a night in tips. Now I can't imagine how people manage to live on 7-8 an hour here without making tips, IT'S MADNESS.

blah blah blah I think I'm just in a slump.
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I'm so hardcore. [23 Apr 2004|01:50pm]
Last night I broke up a dog fight and got bit, hardcore. In all my 21 years of being around animals I've never been bit so it was bound to happen sometime. The bad part is I'm currently uninsured, yet I needed stitches so what did we do!? My mom stitched me up and put a butterfly over it. FUCKING HELL IT HURT SO DAMN MUCH. I'm pretty lucky though because when Petie bit me she didn't bite too hard if she had my thumb would be gone along with half my palm :( Right now it's all swollen and I can't move my right thumb at all. It's perrrrty. I have no idea what I'm going to do about work though, since I'm sure people are going to be like, "I want a grande mo---OH MY GOD DON'T MAKE MY MOCHA WITH THAT DISGUSTING HAND." So today I'm taking a sick day, which is kind of nice because I haven't had a Friday off since November. I should take a pic of this nastiness... yes.

In other news I've been busy I'm neglecting people, I suck and I apologize... but I don't think it's going to let up any time soon, in fact it's probably going to get worse when I go back to school in June.
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I did one too I'm cool now! [29 Jan 2004|06:42pm]


create your own visited states map
or write about it on the open travel guide
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[24 Dec 2003|04:05am]
My hometown (general area) destroyed America's beef industry in less than 6 hours!

http://news.google.com/news?dq=&num=30&hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&edition=us&newsclusterurl=money.cnn.com/2003/12/23/news/economy/madcow.reut/&start=270&sa=N

Personally, I'll be eating turkey tomorrow, Locke can have his prime rib.
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[20 Nov 2003|04:57am]
JONATHAN BRANDIS DIES:

Jonathan Brandis, star of the 1993-95 NBC series "seaQuest DSV," was found dead in his Los Angeles apartment Nov. 12. He was 27. Coroners identified his death as a possible suicide, but more tests are planned before a final ruling. Mr. Brandis starred in the recent film "The Year That Trembled."


Dude wtf?! it takes 8 days for this to surface!?
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[10 Oct 2003|06:08pm]
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY JADENESS
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[08 Oct 2003|05:35pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I went to the liquor store today...
BECAUSE I CAN!!

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[13 Sep 2003|01:01pm]
OH MY GOD YOU MUST SEE THIS!#$@#$!
http://members.shaw.ca/pir8booty/school/school.html
mirrors if that doesn't work:
http://www.gavinroy.com/Videos/school.swf
http://pws.chartermi.net/~christopherward/school.swf
http://www.teletran-1.com/images/SA/flash/school.swf
http://sa.initsix.org/swf/school.swf

and finally more by that same guy
http://members.shaw.ca/junksink/flash.html
oh my god i haven't laughed this hard at flash since i discovered strongbad emails. <3<3
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[08 Sep 2003|06:33pm]
Please go comment, I'm curious

http://www.jadedhearts.com/00000093.html#comments
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TETRINET EVILIUWLKE @!#%$!!!!! [04 Jan 2003|05:20am]
slim; our online community was being savagely buttfucked by the world of tetrinet
Shajuana; haha
slim; im like MAN I DONT EVEN LIKE TETRIS THAT MUCH AND NOW ITS LIKE SYPHILLIS
tracy; lol
slim; THE BURNING ITCH IN YOUR PANTS
slim; AND YOU CANT STOP SCRATCHING
slim; FOR HOURS AT A TIME
slim; AND FINALLY ONE OF THEM IS LIKE
slim; PREPARE TO DIE
tracy; LOLLL
Shajuana; bahaha
slim; AND YOURE LIKE
slim; HOLY SHIT
slim; WHY IS THE SYPHILLIS TALKING
slim; AND ITS LIKE
slim; WHY DOES THAT MATTER I'M GOING TO FUCKING PULVERISE YOU
slim; AND YOURE LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Shajuana; hahahah
Shajuana; dude
slim; SO YOU TRY TO FIGHT IT YOUR BEST
slim; BY PUTTING SOME S ON IT
Shajuana; i have the greatest commentary for this
slim; OR SOME G
Shajuana; i want a mic
slim; G N C
Shajuana; so i can do this
slim; G
slim; S
slim; S
slim; S
slim; S
tracy; shawna just doesn't wanna play anymore cause...yeknow...i'll get ahead on points agaaaaain..then she'll cry agaaaaaaaain....then i'll feel bad agaaaain and let her win 30984394 times agaaaaain
slim; AND ITS NOT WORKING
tracy; :)
Shajuana; like moth death
slim; CAUSE THEN THE SYPHILLIS JUST DOUBLESTACKS YOU AND ITS ALL BOOM
slim; AND ALL OF A SUDDEN
slim; YOU HAVE SYPHILLIS ON YOUR FACE
tracy; EW
slim; AND YOU CANT ESCAPE
tracy; DUDE
tracy; THAT IS JUST EW
Shajuana; hahah tracy
slim; LOOK AT WHAT YOURE DOING TO US SHAWNA YOURE PUTTING SYPHILLIS ON OUR FACES
slim; WHY
Shajuana; hahahaha
slim; WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT
slim; OMG
slim; WHY
Shajuana; dude
Shajuana; OMG
tracy; LOLLOL



DAMNN YOUS

#@%@$^@!#%
!!!!!!
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[12 Dec 2002|09:00pm]
wretchedd0LL: stick it in my mouth and go AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

<3 jade.
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@!#%@$%!#$@@ [12 Dec 2002|12:14am]
[ mood | infuriated ]

for those of you who are interested, you can always reach jadedhearts by going to http://shawn.phenominet.com until the dns circulates, that's the only way, it shouldn't be more than a day... hopefully. heh

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