i've changed alot. too much. i think i may have lost myself somewhere along the way. i was brave, the bad girl always up for a good time. who am i now? i'm meek i never speak my mind i'm afraid i cower who the fuck is this person? its not the me i remember. its not the me i want to be. maybe i grew up who the fuck knows.
why am i even writing in lj? a cry for attention, nah not at all i know what it is even if my fingers and the keyboard are lying to me. it was because i had to clear the air. get it off my chest. the things i found reminded me and i never said it before even if it's now not directly to you. you'll know it's you. others may even think its them but its not YOU will know it's you. i'm sure you won't mention it though.
i'm sorry i hurt you. i'm sorry i never said it. i'm sorry.
i always loved you.